31 Oct 2011

I lost myself...

So things are starting to heat up a little in terms of work, responsibilities and pressures. In only good ways however.

I haven't wrote a blog since August. So really this is the first of the semester. I had a truly excellent crit on Friday. Not just in relation to my work but the whole day (for me) anyway felt so refreshing and helpful. I'm really excited not only about where I'm at but where others are too. In terms of work it seems like this year is gonna be a great one for the degree show.

I've been a bit hesitant this month with uni and art in general. After quite a bad summer and the continuation of several mental blocks I've felt really lost. I kept telling myself to just get on with it, the moments that feel real will come and its then that it will hit me... the feeling of knowing where I'm at and why its so important.

On Friday I felt that.

I truly did lose my drive... for a minute there, I lost myself.

Last week I really got back into the whys. Why am I doing what I'm doing?

Honestly, without it I'd be nothing. I am what I do, above all I really fucking LOVE it!

SO! From now its heating up, and I'm going to prove why I'm here and why its so important I do what I do.

For now, I'm going to enjoy a night of Halloween film with my lady, I'm going to have an absolutely fantastic time in London showing of my arts! And I'll catch up with my abundance of draft blogs!